I don't feel so awful anymore! Things actually are going well for me; I have two art classes, an intro to Theater class and an English class. Yea for subjects I love! I'm feeling out where I belong finally. I belong everywhere and no-where! Ok, ok, maybe not that existential but still: I'm doing better than I have previous semesters. I'm making a new creed for myself. I'm hanging around with people that make me smile and have a good time. I need happiness and Hugs! I need to dance and be silly again! That's right world, I'm coming right back at you with a vengeance...for living it up.
New things on my list are:
- Take more pictures with my new camera! yay! I have a bright-red baby now!
- Work more on a website that seems to never be finished ><;
- (tell myself the money will go to Tales of Symphonia 2 for the Wii, savings and school).
- Get my watercolors out after reading English homework and practice Japanese line painting.
- SWIM, SWING DANCE & SKIING! (Ok, I'll stop plaguing you people with "S" activities)
- Waking up at the crack of dawn every day to either create art or create muscle (omg, the gym? I might die! jk I won't die)
Here's hoping the rest of you are surviving quite happily with or without my company,
Love,
Kira
I haven't Blogged in a while so I thought I'd just give my readers (luv all of ya btw) a taste of my world in a vague post. How fun you might think. Pshaw, my life is a nice tidy mess right now (starting the vagueries). I don't know where I fit anymore. I keep asking myself the question "what the hell am I doing?!?". The answer is always "I don't quite know yet". I used to be so certain of my future, the world around me and my friends. Right now it's all up in the air. Feeling this ungrounded for me is a bit unnerving. I want meaning to my life, and I'm struggling to find it. I want to be happy too, which has been pretty hard to come by this past school year.
To be honest, I don't feel right. I don't feel like I'm Kira at all. I just feel like this could be Kira's life if I get myself together or something. I'm battling awkward situations with male and female friends, school projects, valentines day coming up, not to mention the end of the winter semester right around the corner and lots of graphic design work on a website to do.
But to be honest again, I am having a lot of good experiences here. I love that it's been snowing lately, but now it's raining again...well it was nice while it lasted. I've met some new people from the freshman class, but I'm still at a loss and I don't know quite why. I dunno, maybe it's just the fact that I've steeped myself so idealistically with what I want out of life and I'm an optimist that I'm having these problems. Maybe it's because everyone else surrounding me is a pessimist? Maybe--it's because some of the pessimists are doing well and this optimist has gone on an unlucky streak?
Who knows...
I'll keep hoping, trying to smile, and hugging people nonetheless,
-Kira
Drinking Orange Juice right from the container is an economical way to save time doing dishes (mainly cups)
Cereal is your friend esp when the food at the Caf sucks on weekends
The Freshmen 15 is real...dont' scoff at it
Blaring Japanese Rock @ 11 in the evening can be fun *giggles*
Go to the sporting events (you might get cool stuff!)
Double sided sticky tape for White Erase Boards is your friend....hanging with other materials is pointless unless your really good at it
It is sometimes a good thing to stay up till 2 drawing and wake up tired for english class...:)
Buy food in small amounts or it will spoil :(
Eat breakfast if you can, if you cant then try to remedy this will less food for lunch and dinner XD
YouTube is a weapon of mass procrastination, only venture there when you are serious about it
Dancing in your room is a bit more scandalous for some reason ^.^
Sometimes professors are as sleepy as you are, on some days and let you out early (woo!)
Sleeping in late on weekends is sweet
Dollar Stores are your saving grace
The college mantra is: "free food" at least here ^^
A girl having a messy room, is an oddity <mainly my room
Learn how to dance, you'll be a lot happier when you go to concert events
Know what your doing to get rid of core classes as soon as possible
Try not to procrastinate too much
Give yourself alone time
But also give yourself time to hang w/ friends
Pick and choose what events you'll go to, don't overload yourself
College is the best time in your life (highschool is not)
Make your space your own, make it home, you'll be there a lot
Get enough sleep according to yourself, remember there are no parents around
Cheez It's are addictive ^.^
Be nice, It will get you places
Oh, and keep in touch with your friends, that's a very important one!
See you peoples later!
Oh, I almost forgot! Ductape is fun too
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